even though we had drifted, why do i still feel so keen about your replies? I really wonder how and what you're doing and feeling right now..

Continue acting like him. I am giving up.

I no longer have the will and the strength to carry on.

Let nature take its course.

我的心好痛苦

Le sue parole, sono come coltelli piercing attraverso il mio cuore. Anche se so che mi ami molto, ma quelle due parole sono forte abbastanza per uccidere me.

Damn desperate to leave this family. Damn.

Its no longer a desire, its a need.

Why am I forced to live with strangers?

Why is everyone expecting so much from me?

It's so difficult, facing you, and forgetting about it.

Everything, is slowly falling apart. One piece at a time.

I am not sure how strong I can be to withstand all these.

Giving up seems to be more practical and  its an easier path to choose..

Fml. Fml. Fml. I need a break.

Why is everything falling apart?

Disclaimer: For all holy fucks out there who think that I'm just typing for the sake of typing and venting my anger, please shut the fuck up and don't read my post. If you don't know how much I'm suffering and feeling right now, shut the fuck up. Put yourself in my shoes and I bet with my life and a billion dollars that you have already killed yourself or be mentally unstable. So stop being a judgmental two face freak until you know what I'm feeling now. If not, just keep your thoughts to yourself and stop gossipping like a radio.

Fuck my mom. Fuck my family.

Mom, you've really made me more determined to leave this damn family. Yes, I WILL grow up and be successful, and when I'm successful, I'll throw money on your face and leave this damn family. I'll make sure I become successful and prove you wrong. I'll make sure that in the future when you see me, all you can feel is regret, regret for doubting me, regret for looking down at me and regret for saying what you've said to me today. I swear upon my life. In the meantime, I'll withstand your rubbish. But when I grow up, I'll make sure you feel 10x worst than what I'm feeling now, so much so that you wished that you haven't given birth to me. Or perhaps I'm being picked up from the dust bin like what you've always said? :) Fuck off bitch. You're going to go down.